Only He knows the best

"The secrecy of the future remains a mystery almost to all of us. I won't give up on what I am believe in. But.."

"But?"

"When I gave my heart to someone without knowing when, I started to realize that the thing I believe in could be true. Until.."

"Hurm...."

"Until the moment he chose his own path, alone. "

"There must be reason. "

"Yes. Yes. There is. A reason. I think."

"See, I was right. I am pretty sure there must be at least a strong reason for his action."

"But I don't understand. How can a person who claimed that he or she loves you so much, chooses his or her path without asking the one he or she loves? How can he be so selfish taking that path on his own? Acting like a hero?"

"You mean he wanted to protect you. "

"Sort of. Still, I cannot see how can I have another heart to marry another man. I've been there. It took me years. Years."

"I see.. it is hard for you to accept the fact that he won't be with you. "

"Yes."

"Why?"

"If it is destiny, how can he see that? How can he be so sure of the future? Why can't I?"

"Hurm.. I don't know. "

"I can't see the future too. Still, I believe that I will have someone besides me who I call husband. And be with him to meet the Creator. Unless, I am in my 50 and still unmarried or I die before I get married, then, yes, I can accept that I am a single person. "

"Make sense."

"He did say it is natural to have the feeling of having a family of our own and babies.. but then, he chose something that beyond the natural things that he said. "

"Hurm... maybe whatever reason he has is more powerful that the feeling of all those you said. "

"Then leave me would be the best thing to do, I think. It is hurt to miss him but it is more painful to know that he wont be the one. "

"Are you sure?"

"Man, you don't know woman. It is not easy, dear. It is not. When it comes to heart matters, it is hard. I did try my best but it is hard. I try to ignore the feeling, the more I feel. When I let the feeling comes, the greater the pain. "

"I wish I could feel the burden you are feeling right now.

"It is sometimes feels like the flower blooming, the sky blue, feel so great...but sometimes it feels like being stabbed straight to the heart thousands times."

"What are you going to do then?"

"I am giving it all back to Him. Only He knows the best. "