Happy VS Emptiness

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

(in the name of God the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful)

I love the fact that we are all together. I love the togetherness that we all have. Having fun together. Doing what we want to do. I admit. I am happy to be apart of us. Yet now here am I, stuck in my room. 

I wonder why didn't I just go out there, be in someone else room, talking and chatting. Just like what I have done for almost a week. I wonder why I like being here with myself, alone?

I realize that even I did enjoy and feel happy with the fact that we are together, I feel empty. Yes, the emptiness is here, in my heart. Which is weird because if I like and love what I did, then, I should feel full and wanting to do that again. 

But of course, after a day, I found out why.

because we were away from Him. 

I admit when I was with them, I did notice and capture something that inside me, the heart, didn't like. I kept on praying that He helps them to change. 

I admit, there were times when I myself don't like something but I kept it to myself. 

I admit, there were times when I realized I should not but I did because others did.

Now, I can feel the emptiness.

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Dear brothers and sisters,

keep your heart full with goodness, embedded yourself with His guidance. 

:)